Life can be odd sometimes:)

Life is so weird right now! It just hit me last night that I am leaving the Dream Center in ONE week! AUGHHH!!! This is a weird feeling to say the least! I am so ready to be in Houston, but it is strange not to stay here until I leave for the wedding. It will be cool though, because I get to live with Leticia for three weeks & then I am going to San Luis Obispo to stay with Colleen Rosenthal! I love Colleen! She is a wonderful lady & I am so excited to be this close to the wedding!

My only prayer is that time doesn't fly by too quickly & that I can enjoy the entire process. I do not want to look back on my wedding & think of stress & craziness. I want to enjoy every moment of seeing my family & celebrating this amazing time in my life! I will never do this again & it will all go so quickly; I want to cherish it & savor all that I can:)

God is so much better to me than I deserve & I do not know why He blesses me, but He continually blows my mind with His love! I have so many prayers for the wedding & that everything will be good, but when I stop & think about all that has to happen & all of my prayers, I am overwhelmed! There is NO possible way that any of this will work with out God's help & blessing!

If you guys would, I would appreciate you prayers for our wedding & that everything will work out for our good! The Word says, that all things work for the good to those who love & serve God! I do not deserve His blessing, but I sure do want it!

Sometimes I wonder if that is selfish. I want His blessing, but I also know that I do not come even remotely close to serving Him & loving Him like I should. I feel like I do not deserve His blessing or His kindness, because I do not do anything to merit it. I know that His love is not based on my own goodness or faithfulness, but I still feel like there is a prerequisite to get His blessing; that I have to be really close to Him or something.

I wrestle with these feelings of failure, like I have let Him down so much, but I know the truth, & it is that He loves me unconditionally & without me ever doing anything. I just want to be faithful & worthy of what He gives. He has done SO incredibly much for me & I want to honor Him & glorify Him with my whole life! Ahhhhhhhhh...........so much to contemplate, but I pray that I do more than just contemplate. I want it to bear the fruit of action! May my heart's desire translate into love & service for Him.

Well, I have to go now! Pray for Brian as he is in Charlotte, North Carolina with Pastor Joel! He is on tour with him right now, so pray for safety & that many souls will be touched while Joel ministers to the people there.

In Him,

Little Vel

P.S. I just received the kindest letter from Jennifer Osteen! She wrote me a personal letter saying that she & Dr. Paul enjoyed our time together! Isn't that awesome?! A note from Jennifer Osteen! WOO!!!!!

This is my amazingly handsome man! WOO!!! 

My baby & me!