Ahhh.........

So like God has been teaching me alot this past week & I am kind of worn. I have a friend who is going through alot right now & I honestly don't know what to say to her. I know that my calling is to women's ministry, but God has alot to do in me before I can handle anything more in this.

I have so little wisdom & I feel so inadequate sometimes. I just wish that I was in that place of absolute brokeness & I could hear His voice so clearly that I would immediately recognize it. I long for intimacy with Him, but I feel so far.

Have you ever wished that your spirit was the voice that you heard more clearly than any other voice? I mean we are all made up of three parts; our body, soul, & spirit, or flesh, emotions, & spirit. Our spirit is always crying out for more of God, but our flesh is unfortunately the loudest voice we hear. That is why we do the things that we hate & not what we truly long to do.

For example, my spirit longs to be with my maker, to hear His voice & to do whatever it takes to be intimate with Him, but my flesh wants to sleep or hang out with friends, or anything rather than be obediant & die. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I hate this flesh so much! I want it to die because to die is gain, but to live is loss. I want to put to death my sinful man & follow Christ & His example of carrying His cross. If only I could obtain this someday..... My heart & spirit long for it!

Anyway, I have been dealing with some drama lately, but I know that God is awesome & He will work it all out for the good of us who love Him & seek Him. I have been learning alot & I am grateful for this time to be introspective & evaluate some of the junk in my life. I want to enter into my marriage closer to God than I ever have been, but I have a long way to go & very little time. Help me Lord!

Well, I have to go, but I will blog soon. God is good & He is faithful to complete that good work which He started in me a long time ago! Philippians 1:6!

Till then.......

Little Vel Potter (soon:)